Off the Radar.

I'm not sure if anyone really reads my blog but I've been gone quite a long while and I apologise. The fact is that a chain of unfortunate events this year has led me to look at my life quite differently. I have learnt that bad luck comes in more than threes, but what I never grasped until now is that no matter how tough life can seem, there is always a little good around every corner. I have seen my world crash around me this year and all my control just melt away. For a while I let my grief and anxiety consume me, I wrapped it around me like a dark blanket and carried it with me wherever I went (If I chose to go anywhere). I lacked motivation and any other emotion but sadness, my work became affected; my education was put at risk and my life halted. Then one night I tipped myself over the edge and that was when I knew I needed help and I got it. To me, help always seemed a bit pathetic, like you had let yourself down. I have struggled with a dark cloud shadowing my mind since I was 13 (I am now 20) and the idea of talking to someone about every silly thought that went through my head seemed hellish. I felt like no one would ever understand my hardships and my views and now that I am an adult I understand how very wrong I was. It's not that they understand exactly either, it's that they accept everything you have to say. You are not judged. I think that is what I was always so afraid of - being judged for just being me. For being human. I think anybody that finds themselves at their own personal rock bottom should always get help. You don’t have to live with your sadness and you don’t have to bear that weight on your shoulders. If I could give the best advice possible it would be this – talk to somebody. It's been an interesting few months and looking back on all that has been discussed and all that I have said I think I’m finally starting to make sense of the dark cloud. A couple of months ago I was so sure that everyone had abandoned me, when in reality I had abandoned myself. I am finally beginning to accept myself, but that does not mean that I am not looking for change or to put it better - growth. I am determined to become a better me, I am looking to regain my control. It will be a difficult process, a lot of hard work on my part, but I can already feel a tinge of strength back in my bones. The pressure on my head is subsiding and a feeling of relief and anticipation for what is to come. I am ready to start fresh and new, not to mention regularly updating this blog. Thank you for reading, Lulabelle.

Current

Apologies for the delay, i'm lacking a lot of motivation in everything at the moment. I think i'm just bored of this semester of university, there isn't that much happening. We are currently doing tailoring, which should be really interesting but unfortunately it's only two days a week and that's thursday and friday and by that time no one can really be bothered. However, i'm slowly powering through!

I have two lovely images to show you all of my completed white shirt project. The idea of it is to be a casual looking and comfortable shirt and the final material is brushed back cotton sweatshirting and cotton. I'm very pleased with the end result and have had quite positive feed back from my tutors.



Hand embroidered detail


I plan to take some pictures on a model soon so that it can be seen better on the body!

Sorry i've been away!

I lost my internet for a little while and then had projects to get on with but i'm back now :)

Burberry Live Stream

I hope everyone got on to Vogue UK's facebook page today and watched the Burberry live stream at 4pm? I certainly did! There was a 5-10 minute delay but then it kicked off. I'm not going to make this post long but i got a few screenshots, forgive the quality!



It took me awhile before i thought to myself 'i could be taking screenshots of this right now!' so i unfotunately missed out some really good garments. However, you can check the whole collection out at Vogue or Style.com. The soundtrack to the show was also well chosen and really carried the mood across well, i could imagine it being autumn and all the leaves turned orange, some upon the ground, the sun in the sky and the air clear and fresh! And then there was the rain and umbrellas at the end! Water trickled down the panoramic windows outside and inside confetti fluttered down like tiny droplets of water or snow! All the models walked out with umbrellas! What a show!

A Week Away

The past week and two days has been absolutely wonderful! I finally got a break from the hectic uni schedule and got to visit some very special people. I spent about 5 days in Cardiff with my beau at his uni flat, we didn't do a heck of a lot but then when your with someone you love the time flies no matter what! I then came back to halls for a night and in the morning left for London with my lovely flatmate Rachel! We were supposed to fabric resourcing and visiting suppliers as the rest of our class were in Paris at the Premier Vision shows (we couldn't afford it) but that went to the bottom of our priorities list! We ended up visiting the British museum and The Tate Modern as well as trawling around China Town, Camden, Leicester Square and Tottenham Court Road. We found the cutest italian cafe just off TCR and had divine pasta for lunch for just £5.65 each! And in China Town we bought colourful cakes and used a real life Purikura photobooth! Now we've been to London plenty of times in our lives but every time you go there is something new and this trip really was wonderful. We left London on Friday after two days there and went back to our home towns. I got to see my mum again and i really missed her and she really missed me so we watched tv and chatted on friday night and then on Saturday i visited my aunty! She has a little baby girl called Eleanor and every time i see her she's gotten so big, which probably has something to do with the months i spend away from home. It was so lovely to see her again though and on the plus side two of my other aunties were there. On Friday my dad visited from Oxford and drove me back to uni and bought me a couple of weeks worth of food shopping! Thank you dad!!! I didn't get to spend long with him though which was sad but the good news is he got me an imac so now we can skype! So right now i am typing this up on my imac which i have to say looks pretty swish in my uni room! So anyway that's where i have been, and hopefully i will be posting more reviews soon!

Happy Valentines!

This is my quick attempt at a Valentines e-card for you all! Have a wonderful day and if your single don't forget, you don't just get love from having a partner! Make someone's day.

Ciao!
xox

Random inspiration #1

It's strange how inspiration can come from anyway be it a blade of grass or a stack of jumpers. I found these stacked up in Debenhams in the the Jasper Conran Men's section (I was shopping with my boyfriend!). I love the textures and the colours so a picture HAD to be taken! It is a palette that I would love to use in a future collection, possibly exploring knitwear as well.